So most of you know that my dad and sister are in Guatemala right as we speak. This is trip number 6 for my dad and you would have thought trip number 6 for me as well. God has different ideas. Mid February, I was sitting on my bed feeling confused about Guatemala. Looking back at it later, God was telling me not to go. I fought with God about it for some time before anyone really knew. I wanted to make sure that backing out of this trip was something that God wanted for me before telling anyone. I spent lots of time in prayer with my Heavenly Father seeking out answers. Each time His answer was "Trust me, Emme". Since making my final decision about not going, I have had an indescribable peace about staying home.
For just as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so my ways are higher than your ways
and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.
so my ways are higher than your ways
and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.
Isaiah 55:9
God's way are higher than my ways and God's thoughts are higher than my thoughts. I do not understand why God has called me to stay home. But I do know as much as God can tell me to go, He can tell me to stay. And as much as He can tell me to talk, He can also tell me to be quiet. No one can understand His ways but the promise is that He is faithful and His plans are perfect.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do,
and he will show you which path to take.
Proverbs 3:5-6
I love this because I can't depend on what I know because all I see is my perspective. God sees my life from up above. He knows what is going to happen. He is in control of all of it. Seek Him and He will show you which path to take. He is faithful to show you which way to go if you seek Him. I am a long way from trusting Him blindly but each day spending time seeking and knowing His character will bring me one step closer to trusting whole-heartedly! :)
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I lean not on my own understanding
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My life is in the hands of the Maker of heaven
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I give it all to You God
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trusting that you'll make something beautiful out of me
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There's nothing I hold on to
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There's nothing I hold on to
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There's nothing I hold on to
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I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open
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I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open
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I lean not on my own understanding
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My life is in the hands of the Maker of heaven
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I give it all to You God
trusting that you'll make something beautiful out of me
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There's nothing I hold on to
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There's nothing I hold on to
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I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open
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I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open
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Lyrics belong to "Nothing I Hold On To" By Will Reagan and United Pursuit Band
I tried to include pictures from all the times I have been there!
*disclaimer: I didn't take any of these pictures with my camera. Team pictures are curtesy of Trina Johnson and the rest are taking with cell phones.*
